It has been a month since my last post. I haven't any thing to say but I feel I should make a couple of statements or post a thought or two.
I prefer heat to cold. I would rather sweat then shiver. Its is so freaking cold here.
My life is in chaos. I am ok with that at the moment. Its kinda like playing chess but instead of moving pieces carefully, the pieces are just being tossed around. I like prefer the organized way of playing but I am trying to take life less seriously these days.
Having said that, I find that the past has caught up with me and has bitten me pretty hard in the ass. I think the past, present and future are all happening simultaniously because my refusal take care of past issues is seriously fucking up my present and future. But while I am not a coward when confronting most issues, I find that my past issues comes with my past attitude of simply running away from them and it is in full force. Coming home to Oklahoma has been coming back to my past, good and bad. And I do not want to deal with that bad portion of it.
But I have a meeting with my conference superintendent on Wednesday in order to deal with my past, present and future And I just don't want to. But running from the issues didn't do me any good the first time so I should try something else, right?
I don't mean to be vague with my problem but I am uncertain how to be more specific.
No, that's not true. I just don't want to talk about it other than to say I know I have a problem. How the heck am I suppose to deal with myself if I can't get myself to be an adult about this? Especially by Wednesday at 10:30am.
My shower works. I fixed it all by myself and got a new shower head installed as well. With something called a pipe wrench. Go figure. But I am happy. My life can be chaotic but as long as my shower works, I am happy. Life is good...
