The other church I was offered was the church that currently also holds my membership. It was my father's first church out of seminary. It was also the church that recommended my mom for ministry. As well as me. So I went back to my DS said, I think I want these two churches.
Strangely enough, I haven't panicked and I have also be exhibiting some pastor like qualities of which I am very suspicious. I have never had the desire to be a pastor. Since I was 4-ish I have wanted to be a missionary (as a four year old I defined a missionary as "someone who works with the church") Plus after being a preacher's kid, I am certainly tired of trying to live up to the church's impossible standards for clergy and their families.
I have been at Clinton Indian UMC since Feb 07 and will start Billy Hooton Memorial UMC on June 20, 2007.
I have been trying to convince God that I do not have the right temperament to be an effective pastor. The Lord is not listening. And as I find that I am actually wanting to visit a parishioner in the hospital and do a home visit to another parishioner, I really don't know what to make of myself anymore.
Good Lord, who have I become?
