A friend of mine likens his search for his true vocation to a search for a movie in a video store. He is fairly certain that he is in the right genre but he can't decide on the actual movie. I understand this perfectly. I also feel that I am in the right genre I just can't find the right movie. The movie I have is not the thing. I am fairly certain I would feel it was the right thing if it was indeed the right thing.
Does everyone feel like this? I feel guilty about my lack of satisfaction with my current choice. This is the mass' favorite role of religious genre in my neck of the woods and though I like to think that I am capable of winning fights against nature, I am aware that I am insecure and if I am not backed up...I will give in. That and I am tired of fighting. Which is saying something. I tend to think that I am a warrior but I feel like I am a deeply wounded warrior in need of healing and rest. Yeah, who has time for that?
Tomorrow I will make a choice about my future, a choice that will change the trajectory that my life has been taking, I will be brave and do this. I think perhaps I should be looking in the Sundance channel movie section. Tomorrow. I can be brave tomorrow. Just watch me. :)
